5.0 Truthiness

[no_fastolfe]

I hate you. I hate all of you. Except the ones that I don't but I'm afraid if I like them too much they'll abandon me. Even one of my own robots abandoned me and I loved him very much and he's dead. He wouldn't have died if he'd stayed with me and I think he must not have loved me. I was so sure he did.

Every day you show little pieces of your lives and I see how much you are individuals who seek to make the most out of your short lifespan and it terrifies me that there are billions of you on Earth and settling the galaxy because so long as you are insects you could never overrun the Spacer worlds but if you are people then your voices will drown us out and I will not have lived for anything.

I am so afraid of dying now and I hate that the last thing I know before my death will be fear and pain and I hate that there is nothing all Spacer advancement can do about it and I hate all of you.



[OOC: Vasilia is so affected. Not being able to lie to herself is being very damaging. On the other hand, for the first time since she was a weetiny thing she will completely trust people... whether that's good or not.]

Comments

[strangehistorian]

Why is the idea of being happier frightening? Was it at the cost of the suffering of others?

[no_fastolfe]

No. But I am more inclined to remain miserable but the same than be happier but changed.

But I have been told that it is acceptable to change and to use these chemicals as a tool and that's a much more acceptable phrasing to me. Why does it matter so much what form an idea takes when the data is essentially the same? That disturbs me because I like to think I'm much more logical than that.

[strangehistorian]

I can't speak for your own thoughts. Emotions are highly unpredictable in mortals I have not studied.

[no_fastolfe]

What is being immortal like?

[strangehistorian]

I really don't have any basis for comparison. We are appointed with true duties and purposes, though, which I think would make some mortals highly productive and motivated and utterly stifle others.

[no_fastolfe]

Are these duties assigned by aptitude? If so how is it tested? If not does it not risk a sub-optimal assignment? Do you like your assignment?

[strangehistorian]

Aptitude is gifted by duty. Hm. Further information is secret, but I'll be able to explain later.

[no_fastolfe]

Of course! I will wait.

[Vasilia is so much more agreeable when she believes people implicitly.]

[strangehistorian]

Thank you!