5.0 Truthiness

[no_fastolfe]

I hate you. I hate all of you. Except the ones that I don't but I'm afraid if I like them too much they'll abandon me. Even one of my own robots abandoned me and I loved him very much and he's dead. He wouldn't have died if he'd stayed with me and I think he must not have loved me. I was so sure he did.

Every day you show little pieces of your lives and I see how much you are individuals who seek to make the most out of your short lifespan and it terrifies me that there are billions of you on Earth and settling the galaxy because so long as you are insects you could never overrun the Spacer worlds but if you are people then your voices will drown us out and I will not have lived for anything.

I am so afraid of dying now and I hate that the last thing I know before my death will be fear and pain and I hate that there is nothing all Spacer advancement can do about it and I hate all of you.



[OOC: Vasilia is so affected. Not being able to lie to herself is being very damaging. On the other hand, for the first time since she was a weetiny thing she will completely trust people... whether that's good or not.]

Comments

[no_fastolfe]

You are Earthers and I had a very simple idea of your behavior before I came here. Fiction and report assures me that you are dirty, infectious, stupid, and greatly unattached to your lives because there are so many of you that one life is lost in the noise. This did not precisely fit my experience with the Earther I met before I came here but he used very personal aspects of my life against me and I hated him too much to revise my opinions based on his actions.

I have to reassess my opinions now because there are people here whose company I enjoy who are also Earthers and it completely reshapes my view of morality and galactic politics and I hate change very much.

[19centconstable.livejournal.com]

Change can be very difficult, but I think all of that sounds very positive.

[no_fastolfe]

But if it is true then I have been wrong all my life and I am terrified of being wrong. It angers me and it makes me think that people are laughing at me.

[19centconstable.livejournal.com]

It's alright to have been wrong if you realize it, and strive to make things right.

I am certainly not laughing at you, and I don't believe anyone else is either.

[no_fastolfe]

You aren't?

I was very sure for a long time that everyone was.

Are you very sure you're not.

[19centconstable.livejournal.com]

Yes miss: entirely sure.

[no_fastolfe]

...oh.

Then things will be all right.

[19centconstable.livejournal.com]

I always like to think so.