Warden 1.0 (Again, Vasilia)
May. 21st, 2012 08:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no_fastolfeHave so many of the faces I was used to gone? I had not realized how I would feel their loss. But some of my old acquaintances are active, and I am pleased to see you. Doctor, are you--well? [His last network post looked downright miserable.] It has been a period of years, in my timeline, how long last since I was here?
For the many that I see and do not know- hello, I am Doctor Vasilia Aliena of the Auroran Robotics Institute. I spent several months aboard this vessel as an inmate; I return now in hopes that I can be as successful as my wardens.
For the many that I see and do not know- hello, I am Doctor Vasilia Aliena of the Auroran Robotics Institute. I spent several months aboard this vessel as an inmate; I return now in hopes that I can be as successful as my wardens.
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Date: 2012-05-22 03:27 am (UTC)[This smile is a little more genuine.]
I have faith in your genius and your ability to create artificial people. It is merely a matter of time. As for me...perhaps I can go back to my old self when I am no longer imprisoned here.
[The greenhouse looms over them, its lights in night-cycle.]
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Date: 2012-05-22 03:29 am (UTC)I hope that you can find peace-- here or outside. [She moves carefully among the flower-beds, minding her feet in the reduced light.]
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Date: 2012-05-22 02:59 pm (UTC)Peace. I won't find it here. This place is a nightmare. Someone removed some of my memories and I still cannot--
[But that is an admission of weakness, and he shuts up quickly.]
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Date: 2012-05-22 03:03 pm (UTC)It is quite lovely, though the layout has changed since I was last here.
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Date: 2012-05-22 04:09 pm (UTC)I put up the pots with the jasmine vines on top of those columns. Which reminds me, I am the only one who can water them and I haven't been in enough. [He goes for the hose.]
Ah, they've been suffering a bit without my care. [A touch of real regret in his voice.]
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Date: 2012-05-22 04:58 pm (UTC)Spam
Date: 2012-05-22 10:48 pm (UTC)If I still decide to become a Warden I will ask for a grotto with plants.
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Date: 2012-05-23 02:27 am (UTC)I ... had not considered what being a warden would mean to my decorations. But I do not think I will ask for plants-- if given my choice, I prefer them less restrained than I could manage in my room, and without gardening full time. This task I happily leave to robots. Though I had hoped that Armiston's long functional life gardening might have given him a sense of aesthetics-- I am still working with him, encouraging him to make more independent choices, to see if he has or will spontaneously develop one.
But! [She's just remembered the significance of the gardens on her estate.] I created a minor sensation by introducing Earth flowers onto my estate. I hinted at a botanical archivist contact on Melpomene and no great suspicion was raised-- but I have been solicited for seed and growth. Your Alpine pinks are flourishing across several Auroran estates.
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Date: 2012-05-23 04:44 am (UTC)[The news of the flowers brings out a smile...enough of one that the pain starts to come back and he gasps a little. But it is good news.]
That is excellent news! They are...becoming endangered on Earth.
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Date: 2012-05-23 05:19 am (UTC)[Despite the difference in size, she reaches up to catch his shoulder, as if she can support him.]
They-- ah, thrive on Aurora, and my own blooms are tended with care. Armiston knows that they are significant to me; we talk about it sometimes.
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Date: 2012-05-23 09:15 pm (UTC)Spam
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Date: 2012-05-23 10:44 pm (UTC)I have tried to explain to people that I have no reason to feel anymore, but they don't understand.
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Date: 2012-05-23 11:15 pm (UTC)I understand, Count. But it seems as if there is still anger, and nothing to defray it. I hope I am wrong.
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Date: 2012-05-23 11:43 pm (UTC)There's never been anything to defray it except my self discipline and desire not to do harm. I only know three things to do with anger: indulge it, swallow it and suffer, or shut down. I have swallowed too much. I...can't even explain what it has been like to spend an entire year restraining myself without any outlet or means of mitigating it. I was so well behaved that it hurt me, Vasilia. Of course the anger is still there. It is there every moment of my existence. If I pay attention to my heart it feels like I have swallowed a hot coal.
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Date: 2012-05-23 11:48 pm (UTC)I am so... poor at managing my own emotions. I can't help, I don't know how. If I could only take you back to Aurora, now, let you rest. My estate is beautiful and calm. Isolated.
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Date: 2012-05-24 12:26 am (UTC)I know, I understand. That is what everyone keeps telling me. I...
[And his voice is suddenly shaking with emotion.]
I just wish I could go somewhere where no one knows what I am.
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Date: 2012-05-24 12:30 am (UTC)I too. There are obstacles yet... but there are worlds. I visited old friends from the barge. The admiral's powers to transport are no lie. There is. At least. Hope.
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Date: 2012-05-24 12:38 am (UTC)I don't want to be numb, but how else can I bear through?
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Date: 2012-05-24 12:38 am (UTC)[She seems ashamed to say it.]
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Date: 2012-05-24 02:27 am (UTC)It is all right. There is still someone who can help me.
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Date: 2012-05-24 02:32 am (UTC)I'm sorry; so sorry. I hadn't wanted to make this more difficult for you.
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Date: 2012-05-24 03:17 am (UTC)These newfound feelings did not exactly come with an instruction manual.
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Date: 2012-05-24 04:15 am (UTC)If you must shut down to make it tolerable-- I want you first and foremost to be as comfortable as you can, I do not demand you back for my own pleasure. If it is what you must do I understand. How I wish I could give you more of a choice!
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Date: 2012-05-24 08:07 pm (UTC)I want to be myself around you. But it feels as if I had swallowed hot coals and they still burn inside of me.
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